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Friday, March 31, 2006
Thank you for the past three months. I guess you've tried your best to give me what I really wanted & now, I thank you for that. :) I know, I haven't give you the best & I guess I got you the worst. Whatever that I'm saying now no longer occurs to you. Well, you no longer care 'cos the one who's hurting is me, not you. I know you're tired, I can sense that. I was hoping you'd be more honest with me about your feelings but no, you didn't. I thought previously we promised that we wouldn't overlook things? But we did, time & time again.

I wonder if you're feeling the same way as I do. 'Cos I'm tired about all these too, just that I'm willing to try again, for you. But yet I'm feeling fucking down. I hate it whenever it's a one sided kinda thing. Do you understand what I've been trying to tell you, show you? Perhaps you don't, or you will never. I want you to know how I exactly feel right now. 'Cos the pain's unbearable, that was why I reacted that way. You know what has been going on in school, at home. My family, my friends & you, all gone all of a sudden. You promised you'd stay & never walk away. But this time, I know you had to. I'm sorry; I caused you all these hurt, pain, breathless days.

For the past three months, you taught me a lot of things. I guess this time I fell hard. I thought you'd catch me when I fall this time but no. It's okay, I still wanna thank you for that 'cos you made Glynis learn. You taught me how to control my temper towards my mom, you taught me how to talk nicely to my dad, you taught me how to study hard, you taught me that actually life isn't that terrible, just be positive, you taught me what was self-confidence, you taught me what was love & what love can actually do to one. Now I know this all. & thank you. :) And also, the fantasies you gave me, our non-existance Forever, thanks a lot. All the ways you tried hard to make me believe your feelings are true, thank you. I appreciate all that you've done for me.

I hope someday you will still run back in my arms, yearning for my love. I'd wait for you, til you come back. I'd still hug you & tell you I'm here. I'd never leave you. Please be reminded that Glynis loved you once & she still do, she always will. I wish you'd be in my shoes now & know how I feel.

Images of us, you & the happiest I when I was with you, keep flashing in my mind. They're just memories & I will keep them. The ring, the photos, the prints, everything you gave. I don't know what to say but they'll be in my memory box as well as in my heart, always.

Thanks for acting like you cared.
It was nice to know that you're there.
So much for my happy ending.


2:53 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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